Patting myself on the back while questioning everything
Sunday, May 25, 2008 at 4:30PM I need to publicly pat myself on the back here. I have point-obsessed now for just over 2 months, and am happily reporting that I am currently down 16.2 lbs.
I should be dancing on the ceiling and partying in the street, right? I should feel phenomenal. But, honestly, I don't. I felt better about myself when I hit the 12lb mark than when I exceeded the 15lbs one. Maybe it's because in the back of my mind I always thought I would look great if "I just lost 15 lbs".. I guess I've been lying to myself thinking that was all I really had to lose, but alas, I only needed to lose 15 lbs, um.. 15lbs ago?
And yes, I know, the whole "Give yourself a break, you just had a baby!" comment. And I did. And I note that. And I love her for helping me burn an additional 500 calories a day. But I guess I'm really just ready to feel good about myself again - something I haven't felt in a really long time.
The other interesting thing is the comments from people - the look of astonishment when I say that I've lost 16 lbs. The "Really? 16 lbs?!" Do they think I'm lying? Or they can not believe that I'm still so fat after losing roughly 10% of my body weight.
Honestly, I'm a little surprised also. 16lbs down I thought I would be needing a whole new wardrobe, I thought that I would be swimming in things.. and while everything is big on me, it's not unwearable big. It just looks like I'm wearing ill-fitting jeans.
Which, god forbid anyone ever thinks I don't wear correctly fitting jean.. I may lose my self-proclaimed "jean genius" title.
LaLaLaLife 
Reader Comments (3)
You should be very proud of yourself. Screw the non-observant that did not notice! Losing 10% of your weight significantly increases your health which is only felt and rarely seen. SO be proud and feel good!
First of all congratulations! Funny (ok not ha ha funny), but I went through a similar "funk" at 16 pounds down (which I just recently hit at well). Difference being is that 16 pounds is only 5% body weight for me, and I have a much greater distance to go.
Rule of thumb (for men anyway), is every 10 pounds is a reduction by 1 size.
Don't be so drawn in (or down) by what others "notice" One day, you'll get that "16 pounds? Seriously?" stupid ass comment, other days, it is "my gosh, I barely recognized you" People are weird, what can I say.
So just keep looking forward and looking up. If you really do need to lose another 15 pounds... just reframe your thinking. OK, so you realize you needed to lose 30... but you are already more than 1/2 way there, and you are closer to your goal weight than you are to your old weight.
Congrats again and be proud, you did (and are doing) good.
girl tell 'em you lost it in one boob or an ass cheek or something. lol. that'll make 'em twitch for the rest of the day. hahaha!!
omg.. my damn dog just farted... leaving PC and room.. bbl..