absence

I feel bad that I haven't posted anything in over a week. I've just hit this roadblock. I wanted to do monthly updates of Zoe, so I started month 2 the other day.. but didn't really like it. I liked part of it, and it's honest and heart felt, but is it what I want to share with the world and with Zoe one day? How honest is too honest and what is too much to share?

So, I'm blocked. I come to post something else, and there is that post, staring me in the face - waiting for a answer on if I'm going to push "publish" or "delete". So, I kinda follow my resolution and "let it go" - but not by dealing with it, but by closing the page and going back to Perez to read more about insane Brit Brit.

Comments

[ali]

i understand. i always want to be one of those super-real bloggers who just put it all out there, and don't care how shocking it is. but i just can't, i don't want to seem shallow, or ungrateful,or mean i don't want people to be disturbed by what usually ends up being a bad moment, or several that just happen to be strung together. i don't want my kids to ever feel like i didn't cherish them even if they are driving me crazy and i just want time off for good behavior. i wrote just one post about being overwhelmed after ben was born-the chai tea one you read, let me tell you that was just the tip of the iceburg, it was bad there for a while. i wanted to write it but i couldn't. and i'm gonna just publish this before i go back and think better of it.

[Ces]

Girl. *hugs*

I think you should KEEP the post (even if you don't publish it) for future reference. That way you can pull it out 3 months from now and see how far you've come. It'll all be so much better then. Promise. :)